'Tous Types De Peau'

2010-10-17T12:38:00.000-07:00

its been a while, since the last post. i'm dropping by.again later.. *frustrated*
i know.

2009-09-12T07:06:00.000-07:00

what if i tell you the truth? will you still be with me?
and what if i tell you lies? will you still believe in me?

i just hoping that it is not you.your race, your status..they really bother me a lot!
if only i did not too close to you. did not smile that much to you. did not talk that nice to you. then i will not longing for you.

i always wanted you go for good. for your family. but you did not!

i hate to like you

2009-06-21T23:22:00.000-07:00

Aku tida tahu bermain apa-apa alat muzik pun. Tapi aku amat ingin menjadi seperti mereka yang boleh memainkan lagu dari hati tanpa perlu mempelajarinya.

2009-04-23T10:19:00.000-07:00

zulaikha in arabic it says "fair or intelligent (well born)"

while in persian it says " brilliant beauty, famous bearer : The heroine in Byron's poem. 'The Bride of Bydas (1813)'

2009-04-13T10:48:00.000-07:00

iye. aku orang jahat. kau yang nak tengok sangat friendster aku. beriye-iye kau mintak email supaya boleh view aku punye friendster.

dah lepas tu kau nak ignore aku macam aku ni satu disease. padahal aku cuma nak tanya replacement kelas kat mane je. bukan aku nak mengorat kau pun. yang kau perasan sangat tu ape pasal?

perasan tu satu hal, kau nak nasihat aku, nasihat aje lah. tak payah kau kate nak faham-faham aku. kalau kau nasihat, aku dengar je. tak payah kau pura-pura sporting kalau kau tak. bukan aku kisah pun kau suka ke tak suka. jadi tak perlu kau nak gelabah mak datin.

oh lagi satu, kenapa kau suke nak gune ayat jiwang-karat-geli-aku-sakit-kepala dengar atau baca hah? bahasa2 camtu buat kau macam mat rempit kau tahu tak? moving on la sket.tak payah bunga-bunga. tak paham. rajin-rajin la baca buku,biography ke,novel, artikel pun jadi la.jangan asyik study je. tambah la knowledge pasal dunia luar jugak. ajak rakan-rakan tu sekali. jangan sibuk plan nak ruin kan event orang okay?

so, sekian la.sila datang lagi.

nota kaki: rakan masjid pun nak flirt jugak, bila da sampai seru menggatal. tapi nak yang pakai tudung saja ya. tak suke yang seksi diorang kate.

nota kaki lagi: seksi ke aku??

2009-02-14T07:27:00.000-08:00

Say of her what you like,
But I know my Love's feelings,
I do not love her because she is good,
But because she is my Love,

How can you know how sweet she is?
When all you do is measure the good and the bad?
When I must let her go,
She becomes even more a part of me,
When I make she weep, I weep with her,

I,
alone have a right to judge her,
for only she, the one I love.

if it's only was wrote for me, i would be delighted.
however,this isn't the origin poem. because i forget them, not wholly but some part of it. i can't even remember who wrote this. all i know he is an indian man. i listen to this in one of my favorite movie.

so, i add some, change some, a little bit here and there.

p/s: this poem actually about a mother that loves her son more than anything else. so i change a bit, i want to make it as if, a boyfriend make this to his girlfriend, but now i think it sounds like.. very fatherly isn't it? hmph..

2009-02-12T01:16:00.000-08:00

I hate noises but i love MUSICS..
I don't know how to draw but i love ARTS..
I don't understand, but i love BOOKS and i keep reading.

I'm no good at all but i appreciate FRIENDSHIP..
I can't make people laugh but i don't make them CRY...
but they do.

I hate regrets but i long for FORGIVENESS..
I love rains but i love sun shine TOO..
When i love someone, i love them till the end and never asked them to love me back even i want to.

I hate my pasts but i'm craving for the MEMORIES TO REMAIN..
I am tough but my heart can be broken into THOUSAND PIECES..
and it always does

I'm careful enough but sometimes i'm blinded by EMOTIONS..
I love being me but i can't stand MYSELF..
but i just can't hate me, am i?

I hate LIFE but i'm glad i'm ALIVE..
i just can't simply die anyway.

see me as i really am

I have flaws and sometimes i even SAD..
Even if i cried, don't see it as my WEAKNESS..
I don't know me but i will GET TO..
That's the main purpose of my EXISTENCE~

~sigh~

secawan kopi, sehidang rokok; kau gembira?

2009-02-06T10:29:00.001-08:00

perihal-perihal hati;
perihal-perihal dunia - yang menyesakkan.
perihal manusia; rata-rata bertopengkan bermacam penyakit.

mencari ruang kosong sendiri untuk bernafas, yang hampir putus.
berfikir.(tapi sebenarnya berangan) teringat yang dulu. senyum kecil. malu.
aduh macam de javu.

masalah lagi. biarkan saja.
kau fikir, mahukan,

secawan kopi; tentu buat aku gembira.
sehidang rokok?

mungkin. jika aku m.nasir. heh

nota kaki: hana, m.nasir merokok tak?

27 November- si sagitarius.

2009-01-24T07:11:00.000-08:00

very pretty?
tipu!

very romantic?
sikit-sikit boleh la

nice to everyone?
i see..i see.

spontaneous?
ye ke? *ehehe*

high appeal and great in sex?
er..entahlah. belum try lagi.

rare to find and great when found?
baguslah kalau begitu.special sedikit. tak lah stereotype.

very caring?
pura-pura sahaja.

polite and soft spoken?
bolehlah.sebab aku benci pemarah dan pembengis.

loyal and generous?
tangoklah.belum ada experience.

so much love to give?
yeah..have it all.

not one to mess with?
they do not care.

silly ,fun and sweet?
yeehaa!i like these. hehe.

easily influenced by kindness?
ha ah.aku lurus dan bingung.

having lots of ideas?
tapi semua tak boleh pakai

sensitive?
tapi tak de orang nk layan.

active mind?
kerana aku kuat berangan.

loves music and loves to dress up?
yeayyyyyyyy!

easily bored?
sangat.

easy to talk to,though hard to understand?
sebab aku poyo yang ikut kepala sendiri.

patriotic?
ouh,saya anak malaysia.

thinks far with vision,yet complicated to know?
aku kan bingung. heh.

O Perempuan-perempuan, Jangan Kau Terkejar-kejar

2009-01-23T01:50:00.000-08:00

O Perempuan,

apa sahajalah yang kau sibuk-sibukkan?
dan apa jua-lah yang kau tergila-gilakan itu?

si Lelaki memang suka kau berebut, dan kejar-kejar. tambah lagi kalau kau orang langsung masam muka antara kau orang perempuan.

dan satu hal, jangan diturut sangat ikut hati yang mahu jadi kepala. dalam setiap perkumpulan perempuan, tentu saja ada yang sibuk hendak jadi kepala. masing-masing. nak jadi ketua kepada yang lain.untung-untung, punyai pengikut yang mengekor, membontot-ti ke mana saja.

kau orang semua tentu rasa yang kau orang lah yang paling hebat. kau orang lah yang paling 'cool' dalam dunia ni. ibarat nya satu perkumpulan yang paling happy go lucky! updated! searus dengan putaran zaman masa kini. konon-konon perempuan-perempuan lain tak hebat, tak ada taste, tak macam kau orang.

tapi kau orang sibuk juga terkeja-kejar.
1. lelaki
2. pangkat
3. glamour/populariti

.........

jadi mana hebatnya?

nota kaki: tentunya, aku juga perempuan. nasib la aku perempuan.

tapi moga di jauh kan aku dari menjadi perempuan-perempuan yang begitu.

deceiving

2009-01-22T05:28:00.000-08:00

she felt that i deceived her, but she did deceived me for real at first! and all that i do, was nothing compare to her. in fact, i keep quiet and hush myself for that non-of-your-bussiness thing!.

she was the one who spread the rumors, spread the gossip. and yet, she act like i am over-acting when i respond to them.

what the hell is going on? such an act you have there.
simply being an innocent and reject me like a god-damn-diva! i was trying to be nice and support you all this long. you are an ASS! and you are a JERK!

you tell people that, that girl is plastic. while you're super plastic.paip PVC lagi kau tu, tau x? now she has go down. ironically, you're next. not by me. but those new girl will do. it is a process, you see. :)

2009-01-20T21:11:00.000-08:00

if only i'm living my life like it is diamond, kan bagus. i am fully aware yang aku banyak dapat golden oppurtunity which orang lain idam-idam kan. well, nak buat macam mane, i easily get, so i tend to take things for granted.

and when it happen, i'm losing it all. not some, but ALL.

and, selalu jugak orang mention pasal 2nd chance in your life.tak denye orang nak bagi 2nd chance tu. as people said, you shouldn't let things that you get at the first place.

term "everybody made a mistake in their life, and deserve a 2nd chance" dah tak wujud dlm konteks hidup masa kini.reality check!

so apa mahu buat sekarang? duduk dan ternganga bawah tangga? atau menyorok dalam tempurung? atau juga tayang muka selamba tersorong-sorong?heh.

kembali pada yang berkuasa, dan minta tolong pada-Nya.moga Dia tunjukkan jalan, hidayah dan dipermudahkan segalanya.
itulah kita semua kan?

surat menyurat.

2009-01-20T21:04:00.000-08:00

beberapa bulan ini, aku selalu buat surat. recommendation letter la, apeal letter la, cover letter la. dan macam-macam lagi. aku rasa mcm kerani pula. surat menyurat hampir setiap hari. untuk si anu la, si polan, si aminah, si ahmad.

wah bnyak nye surat!
asik menyurat saje kerjaku. hasil nya??

tapi, satu hal yang pasti aku sgt terer menyurat skrg. baik dlm bahasa penjajah mahupun bahasa yg di jajah. agak2 kau orang, aku boleh buat duit dalam surat menyurat ni tak?

so anyone??

2008-10-28T10:20:00.000-07:00

I w a n t t o r e w i n d t h e t i m e ,
t o g o b a c k t o t h e y e s t e r d a y s o f l i f e .

AND ALL I DESIRED WAS TO GET GOOD GRADES AND PASS EVERY SUBJECT.
AND ALL I CRAVED WAS TO NOT GO THROUGH BUMPY SITUATIONS IN THE PROCESS.

it's killing me.
don't blame me, its the EXAM BLUES.

2008-09-23T09:48:00.000-07:00

I want to be QUEEN,
to be MEAN.

and I want to be a MOTHER,
to give birth, one and another.

what so good about you?especially after all i took from you. that is a definietly a 'taboo'.

gaya bahasa encik matahari.

2008-09-15T11:11:00.000-07:00

hampir satu malam mencari istilah gaya bahasa encik matahari.
bertanya ke sana-sini. dunia komsas telah lama ditinggalkan.sudah berkarat pun.

hm,aku tahu, tapi aku tidak tahu. begitulah.
coraknya aku kenal,istilahnya aku lupa.
ku kira bukan lah satu hal yang penting.tapi ia catchy pada aku.kerana dia konsistan dengan itu.seperti senang lagaknya.

setiap konsistansi seseorang terhadap sesuatu selalu menarik perhatian-pada aku lah. kerana konsistansi yg pada sesuatu itu, menunjukkan sesuatu pola,corak atau lebih hampir dlm konteks ini-habit.

seperti encik matahari.dalam setiap-(tiadalah setiap-aku cuma hiperbola sedikit), dia gemar akan pengulangan. gemar amat.gemar mengulang-ulang perkataan baik di hadapan baris,pertengahan baris mahupun di akhiran baris.

aku selalu bersoal sendiri, mengapa dia suka mengulang begitu? tiadalah pula ia salah, cuma mengapa?style kah?menunjukkan penegasan kah? hobikah?

walhal-mungkin pada diri encik matahari sendiri tidak memikirkan seberat begini.

mengapa aku yang sibukan?
mengapa aku yang susahkan?
mengapa aku yang mengapa-mengapa?
:)

nota kaki:sory jeff,don't feel offended.aku hanya rasa ia menarik.jd aku tulis la. kerana aku pasti ini pun belum tentu kau baca. pasal encik matahari tu kau jgn tanya kenapa aku pnggil kau begitu.aku pun dah lupe. tp nama itu cantikkn?
encik matahari.:)

2008-09-09T14:10:00.000-07:00

pada siapa ya aku nak cerita? setiap kali pun, pada siapa ya?

aku nak beritahu yang aku suka banyak benda. dan semua yang aku suka indah nian. pada aku la. bagi 'pada siapa' aku tak pasti.

intro lagu srikandi cintaku semacam kan. baik yang dinyanyikan m.nasir mahupun amy search. satu kelasik, satu asyik.

fantasia bulan madu yang siti nyanyi masa di APM tahun ni. macam mana dia buat ya? rasa terbuai.walaupun tak suka siti,tapi tetap admit yang dia tu something. ada certain benda yang apabila bagi kepada dia,dia buat jadi lain.macam magik.

lagi.banyak lagi aku nak bagitahu.tapi pada siapa ya. nak cerita pasal mathilda,mousa,mencurah janji ke daun keladi,jay chou, pasal dadidada, pasal lalala..
macam-macam.

tapi pada siapa?siapa yang tak skeptical?yang tidak memandang semacam bila aku hurming satu nada berkali-kali,bila aku keep rewind part-part yang aku suka,bila aku baca buku yang sama berulang-ulang,bila aku tahu sesuatu benda yang mereka baru tahu dan excited nak bgtahu aku, bila aku sedih tentang sesuatu.bila-bila la. aku mahu cerita.aku mahu kasi tahu.

pada siapa ya?

2008-09-09T11:24:00.000-07:00

semua orang semakin sombong. :(

p/s: cantik tak..hehe..

2008-08-28T09:46:00.000-07:00

masuk angin, keluar asap.
apa pun tak ada.blah la wei.

nota kaki:
siapa dapat teka gambar ni diguna dalam surat khabar sebagai iklan apa?

letter 1.

2008-08-24T22:48:00.001-07:00

Good morning, On July 7.

My thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved.
I can live only wholly with you or not at all. Be calm my life, my all. Only by calm consideration of our existance can we achieve our purpose to live together.
Oh, continue to love me, never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine,
ever mine,
ever ours,

2008-08-24T10:40:00.000-07:00

dulu dia kata, kalau aku mati,dia sanggup keluar UTP.konon tak mampu hidup tanpa aku.
syirik!

kau happy saja.tonton m.nasir without aku.bertepuk tangan,senyum riang dengan mereka.
lupa aku langsung.langsung lupa.

:( habis aku macam mana?

kalaulah.

2008-08-23T12:43:00.000-07:00

kalau aku kata aku suka,itu maknanya aku suka.bukan cinta.
aku suka,aku senyum lah.tapi kadang-kadang aku diam saja.bukan aku benci.saja aku tak nak senyum.suka hati aku lah.

dan bila aku suka,kau orang jangan gatal suka-suka nak suka apa yang aku suka.
fine jika ia jujur.jika mengikut orang dan jadi lalang,kau pergi terjun sungai klang.

2008-07-29T12:34:00.000-07:00

spotted!
A and M were soo hot. check this out~

x.0.x.0

2008-07-28T19:12:00.000-07:00

oh dear,

how unfortunate of you kan.talking bad about me while i was out.keep saying me 'buruk' won't make you prettier either.pathethic!

hati busuk!mulut pun busuk! deyy minachi..wake up!do not make statement yang boleh makan diri sendiri."engkau ingat tu engkau cantik?" cheitt!

bontot betol.

*nak beli perfume~~jom weyh kawan2 kita pergi membeli-beli

2008-07-21T08:38:00.000-07:00

of course you know how to fake a smile.

because you never had a real smile on you.it was always faked.and you will never have one.never was and never will!

2008-07-18T22:32:00.000-07:00

semalam betul-betul jiwa kacau.orang selalu cakap aku outspoken,loud and brave. tapi hakikatnya,pesong!

1.aku tiada upaya mengatakan tidak kepada setiap permintaan.

2.senantiasa mahu menjaga hati semua orang.-penat!

3.segera mengalah sekiranya aku mahu sesuatu dan tiba-tiba aku dapat tahu orang lain mahukan itu juga.

4.tersenyum dan mengangguk apabila dimarah walau pada dasarnya pemarah memang tidak relevant,kuku besi, diktator atau apa jua nya dia.

5.terlampau riang gembira atau dead silent bila aku jiwa kacau.

ini semua adalah apa?

2008-07-16T02:55:00.000-07:00

benda-benda yang aku hilang dan aku teringin balik dalam hidup aku!

abah aku
banyak benda aku nak bercerita/bercakap/bagitahu dia.
aku tak puas lagi hidup dengan dia.banyak benda aku tak buat lagi dengan dia.
aku rindu abah.

sifat degil aku
dulu aku degil.apa aku mahu,aku tetap mahu.aku tahu apa yang aku mahu.unlike sekarang. aku lebih mengikut orang.macam lalang.tak bagus.

zaman form 3 aku di SSP
aku banyak main mase form 3.walaupun result aku excellent.tapi attitude mula berubah bermula pada akhir form 3.aku selalu escape kelas,practise basketball,prep and etc. aku jadi pemalas tahap dewa.hidup dalam dunia sendiri.

norhana
aku hilang dia sebab aku sendiri.sampai sekarang aku terkilan setiap kali fikir pasal dia.dan sampai dia hilang pun aku tak ada inisiatif nak ubah diri aku. dia kawan paling best sepanjang hidup aku.aku malu dengan dia.maafkan aku.

passion
aku sekarang tak ada perasaan.buat apa pun hati batu.jiwa kosong.tak rasa apa-apa. tak ada feeling.hari-hari aku pura-pura sahaja.aku penat dan jelak.tapi aku tak tahu mane nak cari balik benda itu.

yang penting sekarang aku tak tahu apa yang aku nak dalam hidup aku.kalau orang tanya "apa yang engkau mahukan dalam hidup engkau?" aku hanya mampu tersenyum sahaja. sebab aku pun tak tahu.macam orang bingung sahaja hidup aku sehari-hari.

kalau la boleh putar balik masa.undo semua.delete semua history.kan bagus!

2008-06-13T04:14:00.000-07:00

Addictive content in my personality is 76%

Beware!!! people easily get addicted to me

2008-06-13T04:00:00.000-07:00

2008-06-05T04:56:00.000-07:00

i kissed a boy and i hated it.

i liked the kiss.but i hated the boy.
so, i hated both of them.

2008-06-04T05:28:00.000-07:00

harga minyak naik lagi.

Damn!

what a big talk from lil L. :)

2008-05-31T05:46:00.000-07:00

lina dear..
bila kte tulis "i've taken out your name" itu maknenye bukan x pernah letak nama.tetapi maknanye pernah letak tapi mengeluarkan balik. tindakan itu diambil atas dasar apabila entry telah diubahsuai.

f.y.i-renovation telah dibuat lama dulu.kenapa lmbt sgt discover? it would be fun if u find out sooner kan. when your name still in the entry. :)see,mane ade penipu kan.x pe next time come up with a better name eh.

what?pengecut?
hm,how old are we?12 eh?oh 21.told you i didn't owe any explaination n so do you.
aku mengaku atas ape yang aku tulis.aku x menuduh atau menuding jari ke arah org lain.aku juga tidak membesar2kan cerita ini pada public atau mereka cerita baru untuk meraih simpati-or defending myself.

unlike you.sume org kau nk bgtau.like putting a 'havoc' status kat gtalk n whatever.
khai siap kacau kenkawan aku asking for my hp no?duh'..we used to be housemate yg mesra. n kau la antara the very first person yg tau psl no celcom aku.ape ni lina syg?what are u n ur beloved nk tunjuk?hmmm?

and siap ade penyuruh..huuuu
ade messenger dtg saying "ika,balik v5.lina ngn wani nk jumpa ko skrg." huuu... hot gle :)siap bwk geng.

i'm sorry i'm being pengecut.when i'm all alone.:) sarcastically

not to get any sympathy or anything.tp suke ati la nk ckp ape pun.fine with me. lgpun entry pasal korg da lama da aku tulis.da x de nafsu nk react lebih2.ni last aku komen on you n your bf.suke ati la eh.

nk benci aku pun bole.tp x yah lame2 la.lets not forget our good old days. tp if u insist jugak.x leh nk buat ape la kan.have a good holidays then.

okay la.lets move on.aku nk tulis pasal org lain plak. see what kind of respon plak kali ni. :)

L.B.N.L-regarding with caption khai kt gtalk recently.er..fucking with you is the best???bleugh..thnx but no thnx.

2008-05-29T07:21:00.000-07:00

maaf,entry tentang "saya benci perempuan itu" yang menjadi isu hangat diperkatakan telah dimansuhkan.kerana pemiliknya merasa entry itu kurang menarik-namun-menarik-bnyak-lalat.penulis kurang gemar blognya dikunjungi lalat-lalat.

sekian terima kasih.

the world is not all about you.get it?you is just a side story.

2008-05-29T05:40:00.000-07:00

my blog created a huge scene (sudden+recent)ly.it is so lame since the topic is about my entry that has been posted long ago.the story already become an ancient.sad..but it is true.

there is nothing to hide.what is done is done.i won't appologize upon nasty words i use in my entry.i'm not really trying to make things as sacred as they are.because none stay sacred at the 1st place.

well you see.this is My BLOG.when you in my blog,we are using my rules,we read my story-yes..my version of story.who cares if i did exaggerated a bit or a lot. because this is my blog.I do not need you to tell me what to do or what don't.

I,is telling.

to lina and khai.(i'm not keeping the name subtle.done is done right.)
guys,the story isn't just about you.your story isn't as delicate as you may think.
i've taken out your name there.i do alter here and there.its not a big deal.so why need to over react on it?you see,when you start react on it,it is more like you agreed on it.(no offense).but it is interesting when you are pretty sure all the story is all about you. anything significant to you hmm?:)

oh yes,i did inspired by you when i wrote that. i may fantisizing on people that i hate..(okay better word-dislike) whenever i write.

well,i'm not looking for excuses.but i'm not go around and telling crowd about my blog.(thou i'm surprised you find mine).and definietly i'm not encouraging them to read my blog.because i know.people just don't have guts.people easily get hurt.couldn't agreed more.

stop flattering on the entry i posted :).even there's you in it.practically my version of you.which makes it is not really you.so it is not you anymore.just some additional character in mind to add some color here.

don't label it as cheap-slander.puh-leasee that is so lame.since your name wasn't there.nothing is lead to you.like mention you are sabahan or what-so-ever.no trace.none.nothing.see, told you.the story isn't all about you.why worry so much?it's about me.who i dislike .who i want them to be or how the story i want it to be.i am in charge here remember?hm,even i tell everything.guys like you wouldnt even try to..er..listen.
yea..you loathe me now.i get it.you angry.and you think i'm being all wrong and you are all right.

look,i don't owe any explaination here.so do you.you what?tell people you need to see me and talk in private?talk what?talk about some cheap rumors on internet?-(cause that is more like it right?)we are almost 21.internet story is so yesterday to take serious action on it.beside nobody says it is you.you are nowhere under spot light.

you wanna go around and tell people how bitch i am?how i cannot be trusted?how i threaten my own friend?go ahead.(create another blog to condemn me back is an okay for me).thou it sound cheesy.i do not need people to trust me.just enough if people who i want them to trust me..trust me.

then again.nothing stay sacred in the end.when you did those.we square. :)
never even better.

Rumi

2008-04-29T12:45:00.000-07:00

his full name is Moulana Jalaluddin Mohammad Ebne Sheikh Bahauddin Mohammad Ebne Housseine Balkhi.the family name of Khatibi wan also used by his father and grand father.born in Persia, in the city of Balkh (in moden day - Afghanistan) on september 30, 1207, and passed away in Konya (in today's Turkey) on december 17,1273)

the Persian named him RUMI (the Roman) mainly because of the close proximity of Konya to Byzantine Empire.Rumi was one of the most important figures of the thirteenth century, and has been caled the greatest mystical poet of any age.others have said that he can be compared in stature only to such westerners as Dante and Shakespeare.

he completed two epic collections of poems, each consisting of about 35 000 verses.the first is Divan-e Shams-e Tabrizi (the collective poems of Shams)which is a collection of passionate poems mainly adressed to God and to Shams as a vehicle for God's energy.

the second is Massnavi (also spelled Mathnawi, his famous work) which is a collection of guiding words for the students of mysticism.he is the national poet of these three countries, Iran, Afghanistan, and Turkey.

you worry to much

2008-04-21T11:20:00.000-07:00

Oh soul,
you worry to much.
you say,
i make you feel dizzy.
Of a little headache then,
why do you worry?
you say, i am your antelope.
Of seeing a lion here and there
why do you worry?

Oh soul,
you worry to much.
you say, i am your moon-faced beauty.
Of the cycles of the moon and
passing of the years,
why do you worry?
you say,i am your source of passion,
i excite you.
Of playing into the devils hand,
why do you worry?

Oh soul,
you worry to much.
look at yourself,
what you have become.
you are now a field of sugar canes,
why show that sour face to me?
you have tamed the
winged horse of Love.
Of a death of a donkey,
why do you worry?
you say that i keep you warm inside.
then why this cold sigh?
you have gone to the roof of heavens.
Of this world of dust,why do you worry?

Oh soul,
you worry to much.
since you met me,
you have become a master singer,
and are now a skilled wrangler,
you can untangle any knot.
Of life's little leash
why do you worry?
your arms are heavy
with treasures of all kinds.
about poverty,
why do you worry?
you are Joseph,
beautiful,strong,
steadfast in your belief,
all of egypt has become drunk
because of you.
Of those who are blind to your beauty,
and deaf to your songs, why do you worry?

~Rumi

ayat-ayat nasihat.

2008-04-09T03:42:00.000-07:00

"life is a work of art
you got to paint it colorful
you can make it anything you want
do not have to stick to any rules
you do not need a high I.Q to succeed in what you do
you just got to have no doubt
just believe in yourself"

it is easy for us to come up with beautiful supportive words.we can simply create and said it to the people needed. at least an "it is okay".

say, it is our turn.will we full heartedly listen to what others are saying?

EUPHO or FESCO?

2008-03-25T01:06:00.000-07:00

"kak mimi, jom pegi eupho. Beli tiket ngan yas".

"ah tak nak ah k.mimi.baik layan MTV ke apa ke, lagi bagos" ni kak mimi jawab. aku jujur okay.

heh.aku sengih je.kadang-kadang betul jugak.dalam eupho adala 1-2 band yang boleh di layan.yang lain agak sakit telinga juga.they think they are good so they play and sing like nobody bisnes.bila music arrngement da okay, pemain musik sucks. bila pemain musik da super best, penyanyi macam halal pulak.

by the way,aku bukan musician pun.nak cakap banyak pun x reti. aku hanya ada telinga yang mendengar, dan mentafsir untuk kepentingan sendiri sahaja. so tak yah kisah ngan apa aku cakap.

"kak mimi, jom pegi FESCO.beli tiket ngan saya tau".

"tak nak ah. kak mimi tak layan event bebudak kecik ni.FYP kak mimi tak siap lagi".

conclusion-kak mimi memang tak supportive! cheittt (-.-')
nota: kak mimi adalah final year student course IS.

p/s: good luck retrodelic.vokalis chapoiz hot la.heh.

2008-03-22T09:36:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday Norhana binti Mohd Aripin.

8 years.are we still counting?

take care.

aku ucap takziah pasal along.mesti kau sedih sangat kan.

ralat la tak dapat wish kau macam selalu.kalau tak,aku la orang first.

masa merubah segalanya.orang juga tak terkecuali.kau berubah jugak ke?

*sigh*

わかる　でしょ？　ｈｕｈ～．

2008-03-21T11:24:00.000-07:00

かれわ　ともだちも　ほんとうに　ばか！。(-.-')

大体　いつも　通に。その　角を　曲がれば。人波に　紛れ込み。解けて　消えて　行く。

僕わ　道を　無くし。言葉　すら　無くしてしまう。だけど　一つ　だけわ。残ってた　残ってた　君の　

声が。笑う　顔も　怒る　顔も　全て。僕を　歩かせる。雲が　切れた　先を　見たら　きっと。

ねえ　わかる　でしょ？ねえ　わかる　でしょ？

ａａｈ～　さびしいです。

ｍｙ　にほんご、ｂｅｃｏｍｅ　ｗｏｒｓｔ　ｄａｙ　ｂｙ　ｄａｙ．

nice try are worthless.

2008-03-20T11:42:00.000-07:00

"you'll never know until you try it yourself"

tipu.

"it is not gonna hurt if you try"

tipu sangat.

"at least you try. it is okay.nice try"

ni lagi la tipu.

menyampah

tak suka

benci. kau terjun lombong sekarang!

hish!

2008-03-17T23:24:00.000-07:00

aduh.sakit betul leher aku.tangan kanan terasa numb yang amat. salah tidur la ni.tidur pun boleh salah.mujur tak ada yang nak memberi markah.

dalam-dalam aku tidur yang salah tu,lena juga.sempat bermimpi.kamu fikir aku mimpi apa?hehe.

aku mimpi lebai Pa,Bukit Setugal,Pencak Seribu Kalimah.bila aku bangun. aku sendiri confused, kenapa aku mimpi semua tu? tapi bila aku fikir balik.
"oh,semalam aku update novel di 'my kamara's librettist' dalam blog"
sampai terbawa-bawa dalam mimpi.

kamu orang tahu novel 'Mereka Yang Tertewas'? untuk aku, ia bagai satu karya agung.
Mulanya digunakan sebagai buku teks rujukan pelajar sastera Tingkatan 6.Sungguh, jika dilihat pada kulitnya, aku tidak sudi hatta meletakkan barang sebelah mata untuk melepaskan pandangan keatasnya. Jangan ambil itu sebagai penghinaan. Itu adalah intuisi seorang budak berusia 12 tahun ketika dan saat itu.

selepas UPSR,aku jadi seperti bingung di rumah.mencapai apa sahaja buku yang ada. dari novel cinta kakakku yang 2 orang itu,hingga komik anak-anak sidek milik wawan dan ikun.novel ini tak terlepas.

Secara ringkasnya, novel 'Mereka Yang Tewas' adalah kisah hidup seorang pemuda bernama Tapa, meninggalkan kampung halaman kerana cintanya dihalang dan menemukan perjalanan di Madrasah Islamiah Bukit Keledang. Di situ dia tinggal dan belajar ilmu hidup daripada Imam Mat. Plot cerita tidak mati di situ, pembaca akan dibawa berulang kali ke beberapa destinasi berbeza, sejarah hidup Tapa di Padi Setempat-tempat kelahirannya, hingga kepada Bukit Keledang dimana dia mula mengenali hakikat kehidupan sehingga ke Bukit Setugal, medan dakwahnya. Setelah berpuluh tahun meninggalkan kampung halaman,Tapa dikenali sebagai Lebai Pa di Bukit Setugal. Disitu pembaca dibawa pula melayari mehnah dan tribulasi Lebai Pa serta ikhwahnya dalam perjuangan dakwah mereka.

Sebuah buku tidak cukup untuk memuatkan sebuah kisah agung. Maka terbit pula 'Mereka Yang Tertewas 2'. Hanya Allah yang tahu betapa gembiranya aku menemukan perkhabaran gembira terhadap kelahiran sambungan cerita itu.Kulit mukanya membuka selera , seperti kucing yang berpuasa disorongkan ikan bakar dan air asam,heh.

Kali ini aku dapat mengagak dengan lebih jelas, fikrah Lebai Pa berkiblatkan Ikhwanul Muslimin di Mesir. Lebai Pa bukan sahaja guru agama, tetapi juga guru silat tertinggi dalam Pencak Seribu Kalimah. Ketangkasannya nyata membuka ketakjuban walaupun ia hanya digarapkan dalam bentuk tulisan semata, namun setiap babak yang terbias itu seperti bermain dalam tayangan wayang gambar di panggung minda. Penulis novel ini adalah Hasanuddin Md Isa.

Leher sudah tidak sakit.jari-jari yang menaip menghilangkan rasa numb.
baik,aku mahu sambung tidur.kali ini mimpi apa ya?Tun Nyemah Mulya?jangan!aku seram. =)

keroncong untuk Ana.

2008-03-17T03:03:00.000-07:00

Keroncong Untuk Ana

by M Nasir

Benarkah tiada bagiku
Ruang di hatimu untukku bertapak
Walaupun sejengkal jari
Agar dapat ku berdiri
Di ambang pintumu
Kemana
Hilangnya keroncong
Oh! cinta yang kita
Nyanyikan bersama
Ataupun
Aku yang bersalah
Hanya menepuk tangan
Sebelah saja
Ana.. Ana..
Ana.. Ana..
Tiada ku sangka akhirnya
Kau tutup semua
Pintu cinta untukku
Hinggaku
Termanggu tiada
Arah nak ku tuju
Membawa hatiku

"kau ingat lagu ini?" aku tanya dengan harapan.
"keroncong untuk Ana untuk aku, dan Mustika untuk kau. mana mungkin aku lupa" balas Ana.

aku senyum puas. Dia masih ingat. Dia masih value aku. Macam dulu-dulu.

"Ana, kau tau?"
"tak" dia pantas mencelah.
"iya,inilah yang aku hendak cerita" balas aku dengan geram.
"kau memang anak nakal kan.selalu saja bikin aku marah" jeling aku melihat dia.
"heh"dia sengih.Macam kerang busuk saja gayanya.Tapi aku senang.

"lama kita tak jumpa ya.maksud aku berborak macam ini.macam di sekolah dulu.
kan?"aku luah dengan satu lepasan di dada.berat tapi lega.

"keras betul kau.dengan aku pun.Ana..Ana, kau tak bagi peluang langsung.kau patut tahu aku bagaimana kan.kalau aku sudah jadi batu, kau jangan jadi berlian pula.jadi sampai bila pun tak lembut"

Tiba-tiba.

"kerana kau terlalu sensitif dan paranoid dengan diri sendiri. cuba buka sedikit untuk orang lain. ini tak. selangkah orang lain dekat dengan kau. sepuluh langkah kau lari. aku tak selamanya ada bersama kau. kita membesar Mustika. kau harus sedar" dia kata perlahan.perlahan tapi cukup jelas untuk aku.

senyap.

"entahlah"aku jawab pendek.simple and bold.
dia senyum saja.

"masih ingat kau tampar aku?hanya kerana aku make a joke on you?"dia tanya.
aku mengeluh berat.

"well, aku mengerti.You didn't slap me just because that stupid joke. Tapi kau kecewa aku menyebelahi orang lain untuk mengenakan kau. aku faham tu semua.kau rasa offended kan?" Ana tak habis-habis menyerang.

"bukan!bukan offended. Tapi more to inferior. kau tahu apa rasanya diri ditelanjangi dengan pandangan sinis mereka?" aku gelisah. cerita awal yang aku begitu eager untuk kabarkan pada dia langsung terbantut.

"Mustika" dia panggil.
apa lagi agaknya dia nak desak.aku keluh dalam hati.

"andika itu siapa ya?"die sengih nakal.
aku sengih juga. hehe.

nanti kita cerita pasal andika lagi.kau tunggu saja okay. aku ada kerja dulu. bye!

(^^,) what do you think guys?

2008-02-25T10:43:00.000-08:00

You Are an Indifferent Ex

You're not one of those girls who thinks about her exes - or even remembers them

"Love 'em and Leave 'em" is your motto. And your break ups tend to be a clean break.

It's a nice strategy to have, and guys appreciate your total lack of emotional baggage.

But just a little reminder: it is okay to remember the good parts of your past, even with exes.

sungguhpun kadang-kadang i tend to be stoical and cynical.i just want to cover the feeling of upset and depressed. either to avoid sympathic(that make me looked damn pathetic) or i really want to get over it( since it is very tiring).

perhaps, the relationship did not make me happy at all(fake the love maybe?).that is why it is easy for me to forget.i'm sorry.

hopefully you'll find someone better.

Wish me luck too. because i never had a real one.(ooppsi.sorry)
where is my sun? sigh. hehe.

p/s
kedengaran sangat desper tak?ahaha..takut kan.thehethehe

ini aku.itu kau.kita tak sama.walau kita serumpun. when there is only me.it is only me.

2008-02-25T10:15:00.000-08:00

I am the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
I have the whole world under my spell, and I can influence almost everyone I know.
I don't always resist my urges to crush the weak. Just remember, you don't have as much going for yours as I do.

I tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get me excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
I have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. I don't stick with any one thing for very long.
I have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. My biggest problem is making sure 'me' finish the projects I start.

I am a seeker. I often find myself restless - and I have a lot of questions about life.
I tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. I'm most comfortable when i'm far away from home.
I am quite passionate and easily tempted. My impulses sometimes get me into trouble.

I am incredibly wise and perceptive. I have a lot of life experience.
I am a natural peacemaker, and I am especially good at helping others get along.
But keeping the peace in my own life is not easy. I see things very differently, and it's hard to get me to budge.

I am a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go my way.
And because i'm so lucky, I don't really have a lot of worries. I just hope for the best in life.
i'm sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread my luck around a little to people who need it.

I am relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
I am light hearted and accepting. I don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what my secret to life is.

I am usually the best at everything ... I strive for perfection.
I am confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
I have the classic "Type A" personality.

I am a seeker of knowledge, and i have learned many things in my life.
I am also a keeper of knowledge - meaning i don't spill secrets or spread gossip.
People sometimes think i'm snobby or aloof, but i'm just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

I am truly an original person. I have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for me... especially in business and academia.
Some people find me to be selfish and a bit overbearing. Yet i'm just a strong person.

Hint-you don't have to envy me for the small reason.because aku sendiri tidak puas dengan apa yang aku ada.jadi jgn cepat iri hati dengan benda sekecil ini. aku tidak heran langsung. smirk

mari perasan bagus.hidup diri sendiri.heh.

it is just so happen that aku mmg crazy dengan lavender.

2008-02-25T10:04:00.001-08:00

Your Hippie Chick Name Is:

Lavender

ouh.saya biasa-biasa saja.hanya orang kebanyakan

2008-02-25T09:56:00.000-08:00

Your Personality is Very Rare (INTP)

Your personality type is goofy, imaginative, relaxed, and brilliant.

Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 6% of all men

You are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.